Hey All! It is Friday again, and it is time for 5 Minute Fridays. If you are new and are wondering what in the world 5 Minute Fridays are, let me share! Every Friday over at Kate Motaung’s blog, Heading Home, women from all over all write about a word for five minutes – no editing allowed. Just write for five minutes! You can join in HERE.
Today’s word is MISS.
In a few short weeks (I’m still sort of in denial), my oldest son Brock will graduate from high school. I know it sounds like a cliche, (but I guess cliches are used so often because they have some truth in them), but it really does seem like a very short time ago that he was going into sixth grade and I thought he was so big.
Now he’s a young man – one whom I admire for his character and strength of mind.
This past summer, my brother died by taking his life. It’s been hard and painful, but it’s times like this that are toughest. No matter how much time passes when you lose someone you love, grief can ambush you.
It ambushed me after my youngest son was in his first play. I kept thinking how my brother would have enjoyed seeing him and he missed it.
There was also an art show and I could just hear him exclaiming over one of Brody’s pictures, but he missed it.
Brock has won several awards and scholarships, most recently the Scholar/Athlete of the Year which is the first time anyone in the school’s history was picked as the winner out of a group of 15 other top student/athletes. I could just hear my brother’s exclamation, “That’s awesome, dude!” I could see him in my mind’s eye grabbing Brock’s hand and pulling him in for a guy hug, but he missed it.
From now on, everything that happens in our lives, he’ll miss. Some days that makes me really sad, and some days, it makes me really angry.
Unfortunately, when my brother made his decision to end his life, he wasn’t thinking of all he would miss. He was only thinking of escaping his pain. As life moves on and milestones come and go, I wish the things my brother would have missed would have loomed larger than the pain.