Today is 5 Minute Friday where every Friday women from all over the world get together and write about a word for five minutes – no editing, not censoring. Just writing. You can join in HERE.
Today’s word is DECIDE. This is the second week in a row that I’ve participated in 5 minute Friday after a long hiatus and for the second time, the chosen word echoes eerily the current events in my life.
You see, right now I am in the process of deciding: deciding how to spend my time, deciding where to put my focus, deciding what to say no to and what to say yes to.
All of it seems so good, yet I only have so many hours in my days, so many days in my weeks, and well, you get the idea. I can’t say yes to everything.
The problem is, I like lots of things. Learn more about photography? I’m in. Grow my blog and learn more about how to get the word out? Sounds like fun! Learn new knitting techniques and maybe take a class on hand lettering? Sign me up! Get more involved in the organization where I volunteer? Great!
The problem is – I can’t do it all. Well, at least I can’t do it all and do it well. So, I have a choice. I can do a lot of things halfheartedly or I can do a few things really well.
I have to decide.
Did I ever mention I hate making decisions? The reason I hate them all comes down to fear. Fear that I might choose wrong. Fear that I might miss out on something cool or interesting or awesome. Fear that by deciding I am closing doors I might not be able to open again.
Thankfully, God tells us in James 1 that if we ask for wisdom He WILL GIVE IT TO US UNGRUDGINGLY.
The key is we have to believe Him – both that He will give us that wisdom and the actual wisdom He gives us. Have you ever prayed about something and God answers and you keep praying because you think that can’t possibly be what He meant? Yeah, me too!
Ironically, today I set aside time to decide – decide on my focus and direction in this next season of my life. And one thing I have decided on very firmly is that I can trust God to lead me and give me wisdom.